Pink and purple reflections on still water

I’m a directionless millennial turned writer with a penchant for helping others work through periods of uncertainty and potential change. Some things near and dear to my heart:  underemployment, career advice, mental health, and personal finance. I’m on a journey toward being the best version of me I can. Along the way, I’ve realized that I’m not alone in this boat. In fact, there are so many of us on here I’m not sure how we’re still afloat. I don’t have all of the answers, but I do know that we’re not alone and it’s never too late; every day is another chance to turn it all around. I won’t judge you for going after what you want or make you feel small for wanting different things than I do. I won’t poke fun at your ideas or scoff at your hustle. If it makes you happy, I’m on board: sign me up.

My MO in life is to help others. Full stop. I’ve gone as far as to tie the shoe of a customer who was elderly and at serious risk of falling if they didn’t get those laces tied stat. I’ll give a stranger directions (to the best of my mediocre abilities), hold the door for you, and ask you how your day is going and mean it. I wasn’t always like this though.

The struggle

When I was nearing the end of my senior year at college, I had already decided I wouldn’t pursue a career in advertising and would instead go straight on to graduate school to get a master’s degree in academic advising. A series of shortsighted decisions had led me to this point (casually choosing a college to go to based solely on convenience, choosing a major from the list of majors and never looking back…) and I was determined to break the cycle.

I went to graduate school, fell in love with academic advising and couldn’t wait to start my career. As soon as I got my degree, I’d get a job and ride off into the sunset on a unicorn.

Turns out life isn’t so formulaic. Who knew?

I spent two and a half years after graduate school desperately trying to get a job in my field. Working retail was the most trying time of my white privileged life. I was making $18,000 a year (yes, in 2013) and very unable to make ends meet, stressed, gaining weight, depressed, angry, anxious, insecure, unable to breathe, unable to sleep, and unable to be an independent and functioning adult. I’d have periods of intense motivation followed by deep episodes of depression. I was ashamed to be working retail and spent my days hoping to god no one I knew would cross paths with me.

A new beginning

After an intense wake up call one day in July 2015 that ultimately led to the realization that I hated my life and didn’t really like the person I’d become, it was time to do a complete 180. I set out to redesign my life in such a way that it didn’t suck.

On the outside, everything was still the same, but on the inside, things were happening in my brain. I read about positive psychology, learned optimism, mindset, meditation, vulnerability, shame, and anger. I decided to see the good in life even when the shit was hitting the fan non-stop. It was a very transformative time in my life and one that I hope never ends. I’m here to share my journey with you and help you on your very own.